It’s hard being alive, isn’t it?
You never know who to be from one day to the next, thanks to the silly walnut sitting atop your shoulders, making crazy decisions, deciding what you should do, and say…
I have always known there were many many sides to my brain, from the compassionate caring human being, to the cruel, dispassionate monster that everyone hated….from the loving boyfriend and husband to the cold unthinking uncaring ex that those who loved me could not recognise…
I have tried to reconcile this for many years without much success, if I’m honest!
But it is only in the last few days that I have recognised the hurt I have caused and am determined to set the devil free and allow the cute, funny, loving, compassionate person to rise to the top…
To be honest, until this week, I never cared one way or another, but I got a flash of insight on monday that confirmed my suspicions that there was something seriously wrong with my behaviour and language towards those who loved me …
At that moment I made the conscious decision to launch Alan 3.0 …
Here he is…
Im sorry for all the hurt I caused as alan 1.0 and alan 2.0
welcome back cute and funny alan!
Im sure those I have hurt will find it difficult to forgive me , and I can understand that completely. I cannot ask for forgiveness, that can only be given thanks to the grace of those I have hurt…. xxx
